The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
This book started out pretty depressing. I mean, our main character, Aysel is actually want to die and keep thinking about dying. The best way to die, the way to leave notes, when, etc. It’s really dark and depressing. Then Aysel meets Roman, someone who also wants to die and they become suicide partners.
“He’s no longer the person I want to die with; he;s the person I want to be alive with.”
To end this review, here’s my favorite quote from this book. I hope anyone who has problem who read this could feel better, even only slightly.
“… But this isn’t even about me, or how I feel about you. I want you to live for you because I know there’s so much more waiting for you to discover and experience. And you deserve it, you might not think you do, but you do. And I’m here to tell you that you deserve it.”